"I don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul"

Alice came to a fork in the road.  "Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."
~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland


I have never seen Alice in Wonderland, old or new, but I completely understand where she is coming from here. People make thousands of decisions per day. What to eat, what to wear, and whether or not to make coffee are the more obvious decision making processes. Then you have the smaller decisions, like whether to go up and talk to somebody, or to stay seated. Whether to go to the bathroom now, or wait until the commercial break. Then you have the huge life decisions: where to go to college, what to major in, where to work. If you put all these decisions in light of an ultimate goal, it generally makes the choices more obvious. I've been wondering lately what my ultimate goal is. Am I making decisions based on some bigger picture, or am just blindly wandering around in the dark, chasing shadows? I have a broad, ambiguous idea of what I should do in life. I have a general inkling of what I want to do. 
There's a TobyMac song ("Lose My Soul") that talks about 'living in light of eternity'. In light of eternity, all these day to day things that I feel like I deserve mean absolutely nothing. This begs the question: am I living in light of eternity? Are you? With forever before me, am I making worthwhile choices?

A fork in the road

"The obstacle is the path." ~Zen Proverb

After a pretty rocky obstacle [/path] I am deferring my TNT run to either this fall or next spring. I'll probably do a triathlon instead. So that I am still doing something for TNT this season, I am running a 5K the Saturday after finals at the zoo- so if you would like to participate or donate, let me know!

Until then, I think I'll take a slightly different road on here... Let me know what you think =]

Peace.